Letting Go of the One Who Needs to Let Go - Challenging The Spiritual Ego
You’ve tried surrendering. You’ve tried letting go. You’ve tried sitting in silence, watching your thoughts, observing your emotions, and breathing through resistance. You’ve let go of attachments, let go of expectations, let go of the need to control. But… have you noticed?
There’s still someone there doing the letting go. And that right there? That’s the final trick of the mind—the one who thinks they need to awaken. The one who believes they need to let go. What if that very self, the one trying to dissolve, is the only thing left to dissolve?
The Spiritual Ego: The One That Wants to Awaken
The spiritual ego is the most cunning one of all. It used to chase achievements, then it chased healing, then it chased presence. And now? Now it chases awakening. It reads the books, watches the teachings, sits in meditation, and nods knowingly when someone mentions "non-duality."
It gets it. It’s “doing the work.” And yet—here it is, still intact, still managing your spiritual progress like it’s tracking points on a scoreboard.
Do you see the joke?
The very self that seeks awakening is the one standing in its way. The moment you say, I’m trying to let go, you’ve created a separate self—a doer—who believes it has a task to complete.
Trying to Let Go Is Like Trying to Fall Asleep
Ever tried to force yourself to sleep? The more you try, the more awake you become.
Letting go works the same way. The moment you engage in "trying," you reinforce the idea that there's something to do. That there's someone who needs to do it.
But what if you stop? What if, instead of trying to let go, you simply noticed that the one who wants to let go is just another mental construct?
The Moment the Seeker Disappears
Take a moment. Drop the idea that there is something to figure out. Drop the idea that you are on a path. Drop the idea that you are getting closer or farther away.
Now look: Who (or what) is left?
If you’re not the one seeking, improving, or letting go, then what are you?
Something shifts when you truly see this. Not intellectually. Not as another spiritual idea to hold onto. But as a direct experience.
And here’s the kicker: When the seeker disappears, what remains is what has always been. It is an effortless, unfiltered, uncontrived existence.
Drop the Script (A New Experiment)
For the next three days, don’t change anything about what you do—but pay absurdly close attention to the inner narrator that’s constantly scripting your experience.
Notice how it claims ownership over everything:
“I should be more present right now.”
“I think I’m finally getting it.”
“Wow, I totally let go just now.”
See it? That voice. That running commentary of “me” trying to manage life.
Here’s your experiment: What happens when you stop believing the script?
Instead of “being present,” just be. Instead of “letting go,” see who’s claiming to let go. Instead of trying to dissolve the ego, laugh at how it keeps pretending to disappear.
There’s no need to force anything—just watch the mind play its game and recognize that you are not the voice narrating the story.
Is the Cosmic Joke Landing?
Maybe you were never the one holding on to begin with. Maybe there’s nothing to let go of—because there was never anyone gripping in the first place. And maybe that’s been the whole point all along.
However, seeing through the illusion doesn’t often happen instantly. The mind loops, clings, and resists. That’s where I come in. If you’re ready to step beyond the seeker, beyond mental and emotional blocks, beyond the spiritual ego, and into direct experience, let’s talk. Book a session with me, and together, we’ll unravel what’s left—until there’s nothing left to hold onto.